Baking nuts 101

I LOVE nuts. I think I've said this about 2 million times ^~^ but raw nuts aren't that nice, and to buy packaged roasted nuts are just too expensive. So what to do? DIY, of course! And it's so easy! 

This attempt wasn't the best one though, because I was doing work while they baked instead of watching over them :p so if you look at the pictures, you'll realize my cashew nuts are really browned. If you don't want such brown colored nuts, just lightly browned like I do, take the nuts out of the oven after they're done baking. I left them inside so that's why they probably over-baked. But the taste is even stronger and so, so creamy. Omg. Cashews are my favorite. Or baked almonds. Or both. I can't decide )':

Steamed Green Tea Cakes

 I've had a long history of hundreds of failed baking/cooking attempts, mostly due to the ED part of me always trying to healthify everything by cutting out sugar, oil and stuff. But I've learnt that I can't do that. Baking/cooking just doesn't work like that, and that it is perfectly fine to have some oil, sugar, blah blah ingredients in there. Its all about the taste right? XD and furthermore it's divided up into portions! I really need to get over this obsessive OCD thing of mine about measuring when I bake too -.-

4D3N in Shenzhen, China

Honestly speaking, I've never been a fan of China. (Not racism or anything) I just didn't like how crammed everything was, the huge population, the large crowds, the air, etc. But Shenzhen is apparently famous for their crazily cheap shopping, spas and services. And I just needed to get away from Singapore, so why not?

Plus, this was a really good excuse to eat whatever I wanted. On holiday to gain weight, sounds good. This was the second chance to prove that ed wouldn't hold me back from enjoying my holiday. Unlike my first trip in December to Australia, where ed's hold was so strong, I was determined for this to not be a repeat. I made a promise to myself-I would eat anything and everything I wanted. I would try all sorts of new foods and I would not restrict. And yes, that happened. I can't believe the ridiculous amounts of food I ate on this trip and I tried so many new things. It was truly enjoyable. Okay enough chatter, on to the photos :P

Temptations

Don't give in to temptation, they said. Don't give in to that urge, they said.

But I can't. I'm so scared, really. Terrified. I think I'm turning into a binge-eater.

New month, new start

JUNE, ITS A NEW START

And just like that, almost half a year has passed. I remember myself last year, anxiously waiting for the 29th of May. When I could eat anything I wanted, when cakes and fast food were my delicacies, when nothing had a 'no eating' stamp placed on it. How time has flown. How things have changed. 

After quite a few slices of cake, birthday dinners and goodies, I'll sum it up to say my birthday went amazing. Although I turned 16 on a weekday, being surrounded by friends was more than enough. And at night, my mum came to school and surprised me with a haul from Thailand- Rambutans, Mangosteens and Lychees, my seasonal tropical fruits that I'd been craving. Being a year older though, doesn't make me feel any wiser. Being 16, makes me feel an obligation to start afresh. 

Astons Steak and Salad @ The CentrePoint

Astons Steak and Salad @ The CentrePoint 

cum Early 16th birthday celebration!

Mum has been craving for sizzler, but it's sad that all the remaining outlets have disappeared from Singapore ): So upon hearing that a salad bar buffet is available, she's been wanting to try this for ages! Since I've been doing pretty well in recovery so far, she decided to satisfy my inner veggie beast and give me this opportunity as my birthday present :D 

Redefining Recovery

It's been weeks since I've last posted, mainly due to the flush of exams and a series of problems that suddenly decided to pop into my life. Well....to summarize the last few weeks, I would say its been horrible. I went into a near-relapse, cried pretty much everyday, and relationships with everybody pretty much got tensed and shitty. 

But hopefully that's all sorted out now.